
To Kill or Be Killed
A True Crime Memoir from Prison
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Tanya Eby
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Joni Ankerson
About this listen
The day we met in October of 1997, I was working at the District Court in Traverse City, Michigan as a Deputy Clerk. It was like most other days with arraignments, sentencings, civil case hearings, and the like. People shuffling in and out, everyone taking care of their important business with court appearances, document filings, paying tickets, fines, and bonding loved ones out of jail.
I loved my job. It was extremely satisfying and interesting with constant interaction with all walks of life, including people on either end of the judicial spectrum and many in between. Suddenly, there he was. Tall, handsome, and looking so impressive and important in his Michigan State Police uniform with his hat, gun belt, and badge. A powerful man who had chosen a profession to serve and protect. He was extremely friendly and upbeat, smiling profusely. Best of all, he, too, was unattached.
What could go wrong? He was like a dream man. We clicked, immediately, and began dating exclusively. But he was not a dream man. He was a nightmare...as I learned over the next 12 years.
Twelve years of enduring domestic violence at its absolute worse. Constant abuse, control, manipulation, and threats. Sadistic sexual deviance and sexual violence. It was only going to end one way: someone would die in our bed and someone would go to prison for murder.
This is my story about domestic violence, resilience, reckoning, and survival.
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- Benjamin
- 06-16-22
Worth listening to for sure.
Great story of brave woman. However , very robotic narrator sounded like Alexa was reading it.
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- Audible Customer
- 07-21-22
An Excruciating Story that Defies Understanding
"To Kill or Be Killed" by Joni Ankerson is very difficult to listen to, hard to understand, and even harder to continue listening to. This is sufferance beyond understanding; the question we often ask of people in abusive relationships..... why don't they just leave?
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- pastille morel
- 05-05-22
Needs Different Narratior
I’m sorry but this is the second audio book that I’ve heard by the narrator, Tanya something, that ruined the book or story for me, I’m truly sorry but this performer is just not cut out for true crime. She should stick with a different genre or subject like cooking or something happy because her reading style isn’t appropriate. Sometimes, she confuses dark narratives as bright and it’s just not right, I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be harsh, but this genre isn’t for her reading style.
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- Veronica Jenson
- 07-01-23
Difficult to Understand
Just too difficult to understand that a Christian woman would endure, condone, participate in such aberrant sexual behavior under any circumstance.
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- Leslie Hayes
- 10-26-23
Unbelievable
This book was very interesting I truly cannot believe a person would do such acts to himself or someone else. Some people have deranged minds..
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- Peter Leo
- 04-11-22
Good story
I liked it deserved more than it's current rating. glad I listened. We're the bad reviews left by the troopers relatives or friends. poor woman very sick husband.
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- Maria A
- 05-17-22
Sad story of abuse and manipulation
I wonder if the attacks on the author by some reviewers are the dead psychos family or friends 🤔
Definitely a How To Spot An Abuser Manual.
Glad she's out of prison
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- Michelle Abney-Grant
- 10-07-23
this membership is the best buy I've made this yea
excellent read!!!!! I felt like I was right there as a w
it Ness through the entire story. it really draws you into the story.
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- Auskan
- 04-22-22
Powerful Story Undermined by a Flat Performance
The story in To Kill or Be Killed is very well-written, offering a compelling and insightful look into how an intelligent woman can gradually fall under the control of an abuser and the profound sense of entrapment that follows. The author does an excellent job of capturing this dynamic and articulating the emotional and psychological complexities involved.
Unfortunately, the narration detracted from the overall experience. The monotone delivery, with each word enunciated with equal weight and unnatural separation—almost like it was being read by a computer—was both distracting and flattened the emotional depth of the story. This made it difficult at times to grasp the context and nuance that the author had clearly intended.
Despite the performance issues, the story itself is powerful and well worth reading for its portrayal of abuse and control dynamics.
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- Anonymous User
- 08-17-22
Loved the way the story was presented
Love the way the story was presented. I can also sympathize with main character.
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