
Size Zero
My Life as a Disappearing Model
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Emily Lucienne
About this listen
Scouted in the street when she was 17, Victoire Dauxerre’s story started like a teenager’s fantasy: within months she was strutting down the catwalks of New York’s major fashion shows. But when fashion executives and photographers forced her to become ever thinner, Victoire’s dream became a nightmare.
In Size Zero Victoire unflinchingly exposes the ugly face of fashion and details her personal battle with anorexia nervosa and bulimia with painful honesty. A shocking indictment of the pressures our society puts on young women, her story will give strength to anyone trying to overcome or understand the increasingly prevalent problem of eating disorders.
‘Unique and persuasive … bravely, Dauxerre names names – even the big ones’ Sunday Times
‘It is rare for someone to blow the whistle so spectacularly as Dauxerre. Hopefully her book will be a force for good’ Evening Standard
Written with Valérie Péronnet.
©2017 Victoire Dauxerre (P)2017 HarperCollins PublishersListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
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Such a great book
- By Chelsea Sylva on 03-16-25
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Good Girls
- A Study and Story of Anorexia
- By: Hadley Freeman
- Narrated by: Hadley Freeman
- Length: 7 hrs and 54 mins
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In 1995, Hadley Freeman wrote in her diary: “I just spent three years of my life in mental hospitals. So why am I crazier than I was before????” From the ages of 14 to 17, Freeman lived in psychiatric wards after developing anorexia nervosa. Her doctors informed her that her body was cannibalizing her muscles and heart for nutrition, but they could tell her little else: why she had it, what it felt like, what recovery looked like. For the next twenty years, Freeman lived as a “functioning anorexic,” grappling with new forms of self-destructive behavior as the anorexia mutated and persisted.
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Has potential, but missed the mark.
- By Ian N. on 02-11-24
By: Hadley Freeman
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Wasted
- A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia
- By: Marya Hornbacher
- Narrated by: Marya Hornbacher
- Length: 5 hrs and 25 mins
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Precociously intelligent, imaginative, energetic, and ambitious, Marya Hornbacher grew up in a comfortable middle-class American home. At the age of 5, she returned home from ballet class one day, put on an enormous sweater, curled up on her bed, and cried because she thought she was fat. By age 9, she was secretly bulimic, throwing up at home after school, while watching Brady Bunch reruns on television and munching Fritos. She added anorexia to her repertoire a few years later and took great pride in her ability to starve. Marya's story gathers intensity with each passing year. By the time she is in college and working for a wire news service in Washington D.C., she is in the grip of a bout of anorexia so horrifying that it will forever put to rest the romance of wasting away. Down to 52 pounds and counting, Marya becomes a battlefield: her powerful death instinct at war with the will to live. Why would a talented young girl go through the looking glass and slip into a netherworld where up is down, food is greed, and death is honor? Why enter into a love affair with hunger, drugs, sex, and death? Marya Hornbacher sustained both anorexia and bulimia through 5 lengthy hospitalizations, endless therapy, the loss of family, friends, jobs, and ultimately, any sense of what it means to be "normal." In this vivid, emotionally wrenching memoir, she recreates the experience and illuminates the tangle of personal, family, and cultural causes underlying eating disorders.
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Abridged=Horrible
- By Kelly on 05-05-13
By: Marya Hornbacher
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The Skinny
- My Messy, Hopeful Fight for Full Recovery from Anorexia
- By: Sheri Segal Glick
- Narrated by: Sheri Segal Glick
- Length: 6 hrs and 35 mins
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In this powerful memoir, Sheri Segal Glick explores her rough, rocky, rutted road to being in recovery. As a young teenager, Sheri developed anorexia, and has battled the illness for decades. The Skinny explores her journey, from her tumultuous time as a teenager to the disease rearing its ugly head as an adult, with her signature wit, wry humour, and absolute honesty.
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Loved the audible!! Great narration
- By ef on 05-18-24
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An Apple a Day
- A Memoir of Love and Recovery from Anorexia
- By: Emma Woolf
- Narrated by: Emma Woolf
- Length: 7 hrs and 54 mins
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I haven't tasted chocolate for over ten years and now I'm walking down the street unwrapping a Kit Kat. Remember when Kate Moss said, 'Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels'? She's wrong: chocolate does. At the age of 32, after ten years of hiding from the truth, Emma Woolf finally decided it was time to face the biggest challenge of her life. Addicted to hunger, exercise and control, she was juggling a full-blown eating disorder with a successful career, functioning on an apple a day.
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A memoir of a silver spoon, maybe.
- By S. covely on 06-05-16
By: Emma Woolf
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Hungry for Life
- A Memoir Unlocking the Truth Inside an Anorexic Mind
- By: Rachel Richards
- Narrated by: Rachel Richards
- Length: 10 hrs and 59 mins
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In this painfully moving memoir, take a firsthand look at anorexia through the eyes of a young girl. Even in kindergarten, Rachel Richards knows something isn't right. By leading us through her distorted thoughts, she shines a light on the experience and mystery of mental illness. As she grows up, unable to comprehend or communicate her inner trauma, Rachel lashes out, hurting herself, running away from home, and fighting her family. Restricting food gives her the control she craves. But after being hospitalized and force-fed, Rachel only retreats further into herself.
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A Gripping Account of Anorexia and Recovery
- By Nephi Ferguson on 10-12-17
By: Rachel Richards
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The Girls at 17 Swann Street
- By: Yara Zgheib
- Narrated by: Saskia Maarleveld
- Length: 7 hrs and 49 mins
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Anna Roux was a professional dancer who followed the man of her dreams from Paris to Missouri. There, alone with her biggest fears - imperfection, failure, loneliness - she spirals down anorexia and depression till she weighs a mere 88 pounds. Forced to seek treatment, she is admitted as a patient at 17 Swann Street, a peach pink house where pale, fragile women with life-threatening eating disorders live. Women like Emm, the veteran; quiet Valerie; Julia, always hungry. Together, they must fight their diseases and face six meals a day.
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Wonderful
- By JoelleW on 02-25-19
By: Yara Zgheib
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Outofshapeworthlessloser
- A Memoir of Figure Skating, F*cking Up, and Figuring It Out
- By: Gracie Gold
- Narrated by: Gracie Gold
- Length: 9 hrs and 39 mins
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When Gracie Gold stepped onto center stage (or ice, rather) as America’s sweetheart at the 2014 Sochi Olympics, she instantly became the face of America’s most beloved winter sport. Beautiful, blonde, Midwestern, and media-trained, she was suddenly being written up everywhere from The New Yorker to Teen Vogue to People and baking cookies with Taylor Swift.
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Interesting, yes. Highly unrelatable, also yes.
- By aj on 09-10-24
By: Gracie Gold
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Dying to Be Thin
- The True Story of My Lifelong Battle Against Anorexia
- By: Nikki Grahame
- Narrated by: Yaz Shah
- Length: 9 hrs and 21 mins
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"The figure looking back at me was little more than a skeleton with just a thin layer of tissue paper for skin, drawn over the stick-like bones. I stood staring for a good couple of minutes, considering what I'd become. And my verdict? Brilliant, I thought. It's been worth every moment of all that hard work". Say the name Nikki Grahame and most people will remember the bubbly, highly strung and hugely entertaining Big Brother 7 contestant.
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Not What You Might Think
- By ro_runner on 11-07-15
By: Nikki Grahame
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thinandbeautiful.com
- By: Liane Shaw
- Narrated by: Miranda Millar
- Length: 6 hrs and 59 mins
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Seventeen-year-old Maddie has always felt a hole in her life, but she has finally found a way to fill it with her quest to mold her body into her ideal, thinnest shape. When she comes across the world of “thinspiration” websites, where young people encourage each other in their mission to lose weight, she quickly becomes addicted. Finally, she has found a place where she is understood and where she can belong.
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actually written by an anorexic
- By Dorain Shmlorian on 02-28-24
By: Liane Shaw
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Paperweight
- By: Meg Haston
- Narrated by: Mandy Siegfried
- Length: 8 hrs and 8 mins
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Seventeen-year-old Stevie is trapped. In her life. And now in an eating-disorder treatment center on the dusty outskirts of the New Mexico desert. Life in the center is regimented and intrusive, a nightmare come true. Nurses and therapists watch Stevie at mealtime, accompany her to the bathroom, and challenge her to eat the foods she's worked so hard to avoid.
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The Fake Southern Accent? Yeeeeesh!
- By Daryl on 06-30-17
By: Meg Haston
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More than a Number
- By: Tia Souders
- Narrated by: Sarah Brands
- Length: 8 hrs and 29 mins
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My sophomore year changed everything. I dropped 40 pounds after a stint in fat camp. Prior to losing weight, most of my time was spent comparing myself to my twin sister and trying to hide my cankles. But losing weight made all things seem possible. Now I'm popular, vying for the hottest guy in school and competing for a prom queen nomination. Finally, I'm getting noticed, and it's all because I dropped the pounds.
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Skinny vs fat
- By Val on 05-28-20
By: Tia Souders
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Letting Ana Go
- Anonymous Diaries
- By: Anonymous
- Narrated by: Chloe Cannon
- Length: 6 hrs and 6 mins
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She was a good girl from a good family, with everything she could want or need. But below the surface, she felt like she could never be good enough. Like she could never live up to the expectations that surrounded her. Like she couldn't do anything to make a change. But there was one thing she could control completely: how much she ate. The less she ate, the better - stronger - she felt. But it's a dangerous game, and there is such a thing as going too far.... Her innermost thoughts and feelings are chronicled in the diary she left behind.
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Love
- By Theodore Lopez on 06-15-21
By: Anonymous
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Emilee
- The Story of a Girl and Her Family Hijacked by Anorexia
- By: Linda Mazur, John Mazur, Emilee Mazur
- Narrated by: Linda Mazur, John Mazur, Abbey Fitzgerald, and others
- Length: 7 hrs and 45 mins
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This is the story of a beautiful, young woman — a talented athlete and musician, raised in a loving home, surrounded by friends — undermined by a ruthless inner voice that claimed her body and her spirit. Emilee: The Story of a Girl and Her Family Hijacked by Anorexia reveals the cracks in our health care system, the institutions we are taught to trust, as well as our own prejudices and misinformation about eating disorders, mental illness, and addiction.
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Editing aside, heart wrenching and important story
- By Brittany Hyatt on 11-21-24
By: Linda Mazur, and others
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It Was Me All Along
- A Memoir
- By: Andie Mitchell
- Narrated by: Andie Mitchell
- Length: 7 hrs and 14 mins
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All her life, Andie Mitchell had eaten lustily and mindlessly. Food was her babysitter, her best friend, her confidant, and it provided a refuge from her fractured family. But when she stepped on the scale on her 20th birthday and it registered a shocking 268 pounds, she knew she had to change the way she thought about food and herself; that her life was at stake.
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Wanted to love this...
- By AndreaJane on 01-16-15
By: Andie Mitchell
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- Teadrinker
- 06-02-17
The Life of a Model
OK, I admit I enjoy reading about the problems of others, especially beautiful others. It reminds me there are disadvantages to everything, problems everywhere and not to judge a book by its cover. As lucky as she is, with her beauty and her rapid rise in the modeling profession, it's not worth it. Her original direction, as an ordinary student and scholar, is inherently more rewarding. I hope she's doing something fun now because that modeling life sounds truly awful.
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- 11Morgan11
- 04-17-23
Good Book. Glad I listened.
great insight into the modeling world and this young woman's life dealing with her anorexia and the stress of a models life.
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- tweety09
- 08-13-17
Very Enlightening!
My thanks to Victoire Dauxerre for having the courage to write such an amazing account of her life as a model.
This book opens our eyes to the REAL LIFE these beautiful people go through. Both the men and women models.
Emily Lucienne has a pleasant voice. Very easy to follow along with.
I highly recommend this book!
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- Marci
- 04-07-17
Incredible insight into the world of modeling
Victoire Dauxerre has done an amazing job pulling you into the world of modeling. I could not stop listening to her story. Emily Lucienne also did a fantastic job narrating this book. why do these designers feel they can treat these young women the way they do. It's horrendous! It's so close to slave labor it's frightening. It is mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive treatments. I don't understand how it is allowed to continue. I'm so happy for you, Victoire, that you were able to get out when you did. You are a strong, intelligence, and extremely beautiful woman both inside and out.
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- Kathleen Hayes
- 11-19-19
Loved it!
I loved this book, Victoire is so well-spoken and seems like such a sweetheart. I applaud what she has done to expose the truth behind this industry.
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- Nicolette
- 02-23-18
Nice listen for a dark subject.
I listened through the book quickly. The narrator is clear and articulate. The story overuses the same descriptive words, but it was entertaining and enlightening of the size zero world of fashion modelling.
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- Vera
- 06-04-17
Great Book Easy To Follow Cool Viewpoint
Where does Size Zero rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?
I used to be a high fashion model and this rings true for a certain type of girl. I am naturally thin actually so I didn't have this experience but I saw many many girls suffer and die. I decided to quit even though I was successful because models are abused emotionally and otherwise. So I recommend you read this to get one perspective and there are others of coarse. I think it's great that this author is acting now as sounds like a super interesting person and I wish her well.
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- Daniela
- 10-27-18
Must read
Every young girl I know hates to be a model, but no one knew how much it took to be there. After hearing this book I am certain I don’t want to follow that route.
Thank you victoire for sharing this story, and helping to warn other girls.
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- Kim
- 02-16-17
Interesting
I lost count of how many times she used the word "sublime" but it was EXCESSIVE and annoying.
Other than that, I liked the book and it provided an interesting glimpse into a world not written about often and its dark side.
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- hks00
- 04-06-17
Fanscinating and sad
I could not stop listening. Great narration and a riveting account of meteoric rise in the fashion industry. I am not a "fashionista" but I still loved it.
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