
Sanity Lost & Found
A True Story of Brainwashing and Recovery
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Tarra Judson Stariell
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Sanity: Lost & Found is a memoir that unfolds like a novel. Using the story of the author's life as the backdrop, she offers a better understanding of how our childhood experiences impact us, how we become shame-based, and what can happen when we do, and how resiliency, compassion, and forgiveness are what it takes to heal from the vicissitudes we all face in life.
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- Arlene K Dennis
- 07-27-22
This book has something for everyone
The author of this narrative describes her own journey toward sanity, calm, and understanding.I highly recommend this book to anyone who is seeking inspiration and introspection.
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- Kathy R Miranda
- 07-26-22
A Warm-Hearted Story
Strariell's successes and life experiences may teach you a lot. Her experience gave you the chance to consider how fortunate you had been in life.
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- Tamara S Davis
- 07-26-22
This is an elegantly composed book
The author outlines a route that individuals may take to recover from the negative impacts of abuse by sharing how she was able to release herself from psychological abuse and start down the path of mental and emotional recovery.
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- Elizabeth J Burrill
- 07-25-22
Lots of well Information included in this book
It was a comfort to discover calm after such a turbulent and traumatic trip since it is so hard to come by these days. The author did a fantastic job of motivating people and pointing them in the direction of their own development of love and self-worth.
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- George E Ross
- 07-26-22
Absolutely charming, funny, & delightful
This book truth and voice are refreshing and real. You found so much of yourself in this story about what it truly means to love, heal, and discover who you truly are.
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- Jill K Barker
- 07-25-22
Very auxiliary Life-changing book!
A book unlike any other was Sanity Lost and Found. As we followed the main character through her entire narrative, the strength and intensity of the emotional reaction was at times nearly overpowering.
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- Teresa E Sartin
- 07-25-22
A practical and thoughtful audible
This emotional reaction is a clear indication of the author's skill in telling a good narrative. Reaching the point of complete healing and recuperation for the protagonist was such a relief.
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- Natalie J Williams
- 07-27-22
Beautiful memoir- real & authentic
I recommend this listen to anyone who is struggling with past trauma, inner-dialogue, and self-doubt.Stariell is a brave soul to be so open about her experiences, and her memoir is absolutely worth listening,
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- Anonymous User
- 07-27-22
It was quick listen with a wealth of information
A procedure for healing that involves love, care, focus, and appreciation. Anybody should do that, in my opinion. The subjects in this book that we all battle with are profoundly real and relevant.
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- Carolyn J Macdonald
- 07-25-22
This was a powerful memoir about a young woman
This was a powerful memoir about a young woman who found herself caught up in a mirage of a cult leader and found the strength and fortitude to escape.
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