
I'm Not Afraid of the Monsters
Mental Illness, Madness, and Monsters
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Narrated by:
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Charity Spencer
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By:
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Rivka Stieh
About this listen
If you battle mental illness, love someone with mental illness, or treat individuals who battle mental illness, I'm Not Afraid of the Monsters is a raw, intimate, emotionally enlightening nonlinear portrait through my own personal journals, poetry, and essays of my life shedding light on life with the madness and monsters of mental illness.
©2021 Rivka M. Stieh (P)2023 Rivka M. StiehListeners also enjoyed...
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