
Glow in the F*cking Dark
Simple Practices to Heal Your Soul, from Someone Who Learned the Hard Way
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Tara Schuster
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Tara Schuster
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The author of the runaway hit Buy Yourself the F*cking Lilies shares honest and practical lessons for healing your past and owning your future so you can radiate strength, bravery and joy when life gets dark.
Tara Schuster thought she was on stable ground. For years, she'd worked like hell to repair the emotional wounds inflicted during what she refers to as her "mess-wreck disaster" of a childhood. She'd brought radical healing rituals and self-love into her life. On most days, she was a happy, stable adult.
But then she lost her job, the one on which she had staked her entire identity. Cue a panic-attack-doom-spiral that brought her harshest childhood traumas to the surface. Isolated at home during a global pandemic, she felt piercing loneliness and a lack of purpose like she had never known. Finally, after experiencing a terrifying dissociative episode while driving down the highway, she realized that enough was enough; she needed to slow down and pull over-literally. It was time for Tara to stop the hustling and to reclaim her essential, free, and loving self.
Glow in the F*cking Dark is a guide to healing your deepest soul wounds, getting off your 'good enough' plateau, developing habits that will give you lasting courage and creating the spectacular life that you actually want. Tara clawed her way out of the darkness and recovered her shine, and in this audiobook, she shows how to:
- recognize trauma reactions and choose new ways to respond
- find what's really under your anxiety
- repair your relationship with your body
- find solace and purpose in something bigger than yourself
Full of practical, achievable baby steps that we can take today, this audiobook is for anyone ready to liberate themselves from their emotional suffering, discover their purpose and finally sit in the driver's seat of their experience. It's for anyone who is tired, hurting and feeling like their essential brightness has gone. It's for people who are ready to glow in the f--king dark...
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