
Floating in Saltwater: A Memoir
A Young Girl’s Search for Answers (Barbara by the Bay, Book 1)
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Barbara Carter
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Barbara Carter
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A young girl cannot understand why she should feel so alone in a house filled with so many.
Or why her mother collects people like others collect stamps or teacups.
The six-bedroom house is filled with children and elderly adults, noise and confusion.
Anything can happen at any moment.
Her mother insists that Barbara Ann has everything a child could ever want…but Barbara Ann feels something is missing.
By observing those around her, she fears for her future. Her mother controls a young woman living with the family, keeping her trapped and unhappy and afraid to ever leave.
Deep inside, Barbara Ann knows that this is the kind of life her mother wants for her and that happiness will depend on finding a way to break free.
Hope is offered by meeting people in a rental property nearby, people unlike others in the neighbourhood: hippies, artists, girls from the city, a Black man, and a rock and roll band.
Barbara Ann must sort out what to believe in, whom to trust, and how to find the love and happiness she desperately seeks.
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