
Contamination to Transformation
A True Story of Healing from the 99 After-Effects of Sexual Abuse (Incest) Plus, PTSD, Agoraphobia, Anorexia, Anxiety, Depression, Multiple Personalities, Suicidal Thoughts and More
Failed to add items
Add to Cart failed.
Add to Wish List failed.
Remove from wishlist failed.
Adding to library failed
Follow podcast failed
Unfollow podcast failed
$0.99/mo for the first 3 months

Buy for $19.95
No default payment method selected.
We are sorry. We are not allowed to sell this product with the selected payment method
-
Narrated by:
-
Marilyn Elaine Lundberg
About this listen
If you have suffered trauma due to war, an accident, illness, abuse, or anything else, I am quite certain your trauma details will be different from mine, yet many of our symptoms may be surprisingly similar.
For 18 years of my life, I dealt with harm daily. I suffered over 40 years with a substantial assortment of trauma-related manifestations. I had no understanding of what was wrong with me, since most of my pain was lost in a fog of forgetfulness. I personally suffered from the following disorders:
- Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which for me included flashbacks, trauma triggers, body memories, nightmares/night terrors, frightening thoughts, avoidance of thoughts and feelings related to the trauma, easily startled, feeling tense or on edge, difficulty sleeping, memory problems, negative thoughts about myself or the world, distorted feelings like guilt or blame
- Social Anxiety Disorder
- Generalized Anxiety Disorder
- Major Depression
- Suicidal thoughts
- Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD)
- Panic attacks
- Anorexia
- Depersonalization/derealization
- Agoraphobia
- Essential tremor
- Endometriosis
- Addiction to a doctor-prescribed drug
- I suffered from 77 of the 99 after-effects of sexual abuse
- Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
- Food and environmental allergies
The devastation of the above problems began when I was a child and lasted until I was in my mid-40s. I know my story sounds bleak thus far but don’t be discouraged. Peace, laughter, joy, and happiness eventually came my way.
My personal traumas came from three different long-term sources. Incest was the first form of trauma which resulted from two family members. The second area of harm to me was due to faulty care and nurturing from a mentally ill parent. Lastly, bullying occurred at school during my formative years and affected me greatly. All three areas of abuse proceeded to bring on the above disorders within me.
©2018 Marilyn Elaine Lundberg (P)2018 Marilyn Elaine LundbergListeners also enjoyed...
-
Identifying and Healing Childhood Sexual Abuse
- By: Marilyn Lundberg
- Narrated by: Marilyn Elaine Lundberg
- Length: 8 hrs and 14 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
This is my inspirational true story of childhood sexual abuse that I endured. The abuse was a secret, even to me, due to the fact that all the painful images were locked up in my subconscious for close to 37 years.
-
-
Pedophelia Punishable by death
- By Jean on 09-11-19
By: Marilyn Lundberg
-
No One to Save Me
- My true story of child sexual abuse, abandonment, neglect and a mother’s betrayal. This is how I survive
- By: Melissa Jordan
- Narrated by: Eleanor Shannon
- Length: 3 hrs and 3 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Imagine being an innocent seven-year-old girl with a broke, single mum. Now imagine your mum meets a man who can give her a nice house and a better life in exchange for you. That’s what happened to me. For years, I suffered neglect and psychological and sexual abuse from him, with my mum being a silent witness. When I was finally able to get rid of him and escape, I didn’t know that my life was only going to get worse.
-
-
Amazing
- By Christopher K on 04-23-21
By: Melissa Jordan
-
The Courage to Heal
- A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse
- By: Ellen Bass, Laura Davis
- Narrated by: Ellen Bass, Laura Davis
- Length: 25 hrs and 33 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The Courage to Heal is an inspiring, comprehensive guide that offers hope and a map of the healing journey to every woman who was sexually abused as a child - and to those who care about her. Although the effects of child sexual abuse are long-term and severe, healing is possible.
-
-
Detailed and inspiring
- By Millican on 03-06-17
By: Ellen Bass, and others
-
What My Bones Know
- A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma
- By: Stephanie Foo
- Narrated by: Stephanie Foo
- Length: 10 hrs and 2 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
By age thirty, Stephanie Foo was successful on paper: She had her dream job as an award-winning radio producer at This American Life and a loving boyfriend. But behind her office door, she was having panic attacks and sobbing at her desk every morning. After years of questioning what was wrong with herself, she was diagnosed with complex PTSD—a condition that occurs when trauma happens continuously, over the course of years.
-
-
Complex PTSD from a patient's point of view!
- By Howard_a on 05-24-22
By: Stephanie Foo
-
A Mother's Reckoning
- Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy
- By: Sue Klebold
- Narrated by: Andrew Solomon, Sue Klebold
- Length: 11 hrs and 24 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold walked into Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. Over the course of minutes, they would kill 12 students and a teacher and wound 24 others before taking their own lives. For the last 16 years, Sue Klebold, Dylan's mother, has lived with the indescribable grief and shame of that day. How could her child, the promising young man she had loved and raised, be responsible for such horror? And how, as his mother, had she not known something was wrong?
-
-
Sad, but, Ultimately, Self-Serving
- By Gillian on 02-19-16
By: Sue Klebold
-
An Unseen Angel
- A Mother’s Story of Healing and Hope After Sandy Hook
- By: Alissa Parker
- Narrated by: Alissa Parker
- Length: 4 hrs and 21 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Alissa Parker lost her daughter Emilie in the Sandy Hook Elementary mass shooting, she started a life-changing journey to answer soul-searching questions about faith, hope, and healing. As she sought for the peace and comfort that could help mend her broken heart, she learned, step by step, how to open her heart to God's grace and will. The story of Alissa and Emilie reminds us that the bonds of love continue beyond this life and that despite tragedy and heartache, we can find strength in our family and our faith.
-
-
Great book
- By Defhed on 06-09-18
By: Alissa Parker
-
Identifying and Healing Childhood Sexual Abuse
- By: Marilyn Lundberg
- Narrated by: Marilyn Elaine Lundberg
- Length: 8 hrs and 14 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
This is my inspirational true story of childhood sexual abuse that I endured. The abuse was a secret, even to me, due to the fact that all the painful images were locked up in my subconscious for close to 37 years.
-
-
Pedophelia Punishable by death
- By Jean on 09-11-19
By: Marilyn Lundberg
-
No One to Save Me
- My true story of child sexual abuse, abandonment, neglect and a mother’s betrayal. This is how I survive
- By: Melissa Jordan
- Narrated by: Eleanor Shannon
- Length: 3 hrs and 3 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Imagine being an innocent seven-year-old girl with a broke, single mum. Now imagine your mum meets a man who can give her a nice house and a better life in exchange for you. That’s what happened to me. For years, I suffered neglect and psychological and sexual abuse from him, with my mum being a silent witness. When I was finally able to get rid of him and escape, I didn’t know that my life was only going to get worse.
-
-
Amazing
- By Christopher K on 04-23-21
By: Melissa Jordan
-
The Courage to Heal
- A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse
- By: Ellen Bass, Laura Davis
- Narrated by: Ellen Bass, Laura Davis
- Length: 25 hrs and 33 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The Courage to Heal is an inspiring, comprehensive guide that offers hope and a map of the healing journey to every woman who was sexually abused as a child - and to those who care about her. Although the effects of child sexual abuse are long-term and severe, healing is possible.
-
-
Detailed and inspiring
- By Millican on 03-06-17
By: Ellen Bass, and others
-
What My Bones Know
- A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma
- By: Stephanie Foo
- Narrated by: Stephanie Foo
- Length: 10 hrs and 2 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
By age thirty, Stephanie Foo was successful on paper: She had her dream job as an award-winning radio producer at This American Life and a loving boyfriend. But behind her office door, she was having panic attacks and sobbing at her desk every morning. After years of questioning what was wrong with herself, she was diagnosed with complex PTSD—a condition that occurs when trauma happens continuously, over the course of years.
-
-
Complex PTSD from a patient's point of view!
- By Howard_a on 05-24-22
By: Stephanie Foo
-
A Mother's Reckoning
- Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy
- By: Sue Klebold
- Narrated by: Andrew Solomon, Sue Klebold
- Length: 11 hrs and 24 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold walked into Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. Over the course of minutes, they would kill 12 students and a teacher and wound 24 others before taking their own lives. For the last 16 years, Sue Klebold, Dylan's mother, has lived with the indescribable grief and shame of that day. How could her child, the promising young man she had loved and raised, be responsible for such horror? And how, as his mother, had she not known something was wrong?
-
-
Sad, but, Ultimately, Self-Serving
- By Gillian on 02-19-16
By: Sue Klebold
-
An Unseen Angel
- A Mother’s Story of Healing and Hope After Sandy Hook
- By: Alissa Parker
- Narrated by: Alissa Parker
- Length: 4 hrs and 21 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Alissa Parker lost her daughter Emilie in the Sandy Hook Elementary mass shooting, she started a life-changing journey to answer soul-searching questions about faith, hope, and healing. As she sought for the peace and comfort that could help mend her broken heart, she learned, step by step, how to open her heart to God's grace and will. The story of Alissa and Emilie reminds us that the bonds of love continue beyond this life and that despite tragedy and heartache, we can find strength in our family and our faith.
-
-
Great book
- By Defhed on 06-09-18
By: Alissa Parker
-
Fearless in 21 Days
- A Survivor's Guide to Overcoming Anxiety
- By: Sarah E. Ball
- Narrated by: Sarah E. Ball
- Length: 4 hrs and 28 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
In the summer of 2013, family and friends watched helplessly as author Sarah E. Ball spiraled into the darkest season of her life. A passionate woman of God, wife, mom of five, and popular blogger, Sarah nevertheless found herself abruptly taken captive by a severe anxiety and panic disorder that left her bedridden for months. Those around her were shocked at her fast derailment because she had always been a very strong, dependable woman. With time and perseverance, her determination and faith in God led her out of anxiety.
-
-
Life Changing
- By Amazon Customer on 04-06-19
By: Sarah E. Ball
-
Good Grief
- Heal Your Soul, Honor Your Loved Ones, and Learn to Live Again
- By: Theresa Caputo
- Narrated by: Theresa Caputo
- Length: 7 hrs and 1 min
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The star of TLC's Long Island Medium and New York Times best-selling author Theresa Caputo provides a guide to overcoming grief, filled with inspiring lessons from Spirit and astonishing stories from the clients who have been empowered by Theresa's spiritual readings.
-
-
Book on audio is the best
- By D on 04-26-17
By: Theresa Caputo
-
Get Off Your 'But'
- How to End Self-Sabotage and Stand Up for Yourself
- By: Sean Stephenson
- Narrated by: Sean Stephenson
- Length: 6 hrs and 1 min
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
In addition to presenting Sean Stephenson's unbelievable life story, Get Off Your "But," offers anyone who needs to conquer fears and insecurities a hands-on guide for overcoming the forces of negativity and self-sabotage. Sean - a successful psychotherapist - shows what it takes to overcome the big bumps in the road, eliminate excuses, end insecurities, and ultimately stand up for happiness and success in life.
-
-
Excellent text on removing excuses in life
- By Michael on 07-09-09
By: Sean Stephenson
-
Intimate Deception
- Healing the Wounds of Sexual Betrayal
- By: Dr. Sheri Keffer
- Narrated by: Dr. Sheri Keffer
- Length: 10 hrs and 54 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Nothing destroys trust like sexual betrayal. Beyond broken vows, a woman who discovers that her husband has been viewing pornography or having an affair must deal with devastating blows to her self-image and self-worth. She must grapple with the fact that the man she thought she knew has lied and deceived her. She may even bear the brunt of shame and judgment when the people around her find out.
-
-
Great. But too Female Centric
- By Gary Shlifer on 10-26-18
By: Dr. Sheri Keffer
-
Get Me Out of Here
- My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder
- By: Rachel Reiland
- Narrated by: Mazhan Marno
- Length: 11 hrs and 54 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Borderline Personality Disorder. "What the hell was that?" raged Rachel Reiland when she read the diagnosis written in her medical chart. As the 29-year old accountant, wife, and mother of young children would soon discover, it was the diagnosis that finally explained her explosive anger, manipulative behaviors, and self-destructive episodes- including bouts of anorexia, substance abuse, and sexual promiscuity.
-
-
May be worth the pain.
- By SLSoul on 03-26-12
By: Rachel Reiland
-
A Little Closer to Home
- How I Found the Calm After the Storm
- By: Ginger Zee
- Narrated by: Ginger Zee
- Length: 6 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Ginger Zee opened her life to listeners in Natural Disaster, the response was enormous. She put a very relatable if surprising face on depression and has helped lessen the stigma surrounding mental health issues. But Ginger tells us, Natural Disaster was "Ginger Lite" and only scratched the surface. In this moving follow-up, Ginger shares her truest self.
-
-
A Little Closer to Home
- By Liz on 07-31-22
By: Ginger Zee
-
Are You Really OK?
- Getting Real About Who You Are, How You’re Doing, and Why It Matters
- By: Debra Fileta
- Narrated by: Debra Fileta
- Length: 7 hrs and 40 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
We tend to assume we’re okay - until we’re not. Getting healthy is an ongoing process that requires you to stop, dig deep, and ask yourself the hard questions. In Are You Really OK?, author and licensed counselor Debra Fileta challenges you to get real with who you are and how you’re doing spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically, so you can recognize where you need growth and healing.
-
-
A Necessary Read
- By Etiquette Lady on 06-15-24
By: Debra Fileta
-
I Will Love You Forever
- A True Story about Finding Life, Hope, and Healing While Caring for Hospice Babies
- By: Marianne Hering - contributor, Cori Salchert RN
- Narrated by: Marguerite Gavin
- Length: 6 hrs and 41 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
I Will Love You Forever reveals one woman's decades-long quest to find healing and redemption after the accidental death of her sister as a child. Since 2012, God has used hospice babies - those left to live and die without family to care for them - to mend Cori's broken heart. Bringing these fragile hospice babies into their home, Cori and her family have promised not only to hold them briefly, until their last breath on this side of heaven, but to love them forever and always.
-
-
This woman must be heaven sent...
- By Leah on 04-13-18
By: Marianne Hering - contributor, and others
-
Brave Surrender
- Let God’s Love Rewrite Your Story
- By: Kim Walker-Smith
- Narrated by: Kim Walker-Smith
- Length: 5 hrs and 38 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
If you are longing to experience God more than the shame or hurts of your past, the pressures of your present, or the fear of your future, Brave Surrender offers a soul-healing path forward. As Kim learned in her own life, the first step - and the bravest step - is letting go. Once we let go of anything that gets between us and God, we are freed to take hold of the life that truly matters.
-
-
It gave me a lot to reflect on
- By Freddy on 04-04-19
By: Kim Walker-Smith
-
Quarks of Light
- A Near-Death Experience
- By: Rob A. Gentile
- Narrated by: Rob. A. Gentile
- Length: 7 hrs and 4 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
At the age of 56, Rob A. Gentile had a massive heart attack followed by a profound near-death experience. On his journey to his heart transplant, he was close to death again and entered the Ethereal a second time. He found himself inside a shapeless, formless vacuum of unending and infinite vastness. He was everywhere at once, scattered across a timeless expanse, and connected to the wisdom of the universe - all of it without words. He saw and simultaneously became part of a gigantic interactive web of twinkling lights covering the Earth and stretching into infinity.
-
-
Very interesting story, but not an NDE
- By Amazon Customer on 01-22-22
By: Rob A. Gentile
-
Kill the Spider
- Getting Rid of What's Really Holding You Back
- By: Carlos Whittaker
- Narrated by: Carlos Whittaker
- Length: 4 hrs and 37 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Carlos Whittaker equips you with practical steps to destroying the roots of your deep-seated habits so you can get rid of what's holding you back and embrace true freedom in Christ. Are you tired of trying to live for Christ - only to fail time and time again with the same old behaviors? Do you pray for guidance, ask for deliverance, and vow to do better, yet fail to progress? Throughout Kill the Spider, Carlos walks you through the key aspects of killing the spiders in your own life.
-
-
really a good word for me in season
- By Holly Smith on 01-22-20
By: Carlos Whittaker
-
Finding Your Way after the Suicide of Someone You Love
- By: David B. Biebel, Suzanne L. Foster
- Narrated by: Tom Parks
- Length: 5 hrs and 59 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Finding Your Way after the Suicide of Someone You Love is a compassionate and practical guide that addresses the intensely personal issues of survivors of suicide (SOS). This gentle and faith-affirming resource helps survivors know what to expect, especially during the first year following a suicide. It includes personal stories of survivors and suggestions on how to move beyond survival to live life again.
-
-
#1 choice for suicide survivors
- By B W on 04-15-14
By: David B. Biebel, and others
What listeners say about Contamination to Transformation
Average customer ratingsReviews - Please select the tabs below to change the source of reviews.
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- WESTON TAYLOR
- 07-29-19
WIKIPEDIA IS NOT VALID AS A REFERENCE EVER
WIKIPEDIAis NOT VALID as REFERENCE NOR WILL IT EVER BE SINCE for 1; its editable by anyone from anywhere (meaning I could for exmple change the name of a mental illness like Bipolar to "Occasional Psychopathic disorder" & anyone who can get to the site Wikipedia has the ability add or delete anything and write whatever they want and it will stay with the potentially dangerous incorrect information for days weeks or months depending on when the Wiki employees catch the incorrect info. I appreciate your story but really really I hope youve not used the DSM5 or any previous version to self diagnose or tell others what illnesses you think they may or may not have 'unless you're a current licensed/
board certified Physician recognized by the US federal gov. At the very minimum medical Journals as well as a reputable dictionary & published scholarly journals should have been used to site "Facts"
In anvanced college prep writing in 2004 as a HS senior amwe could only use professional published journals in 2004. Then at University of Wisconsin until 2008 my peers and me would be put on scademic probation if we attempted using WIKIPEDIA which was viewed as false info and considered plagerism since the info was not based on studies but rather opinions of random people who were able to edit as they wished . very misleading.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!
1 person found this helpful