
Against Such Things
A Memoir of Trauma, Addiction, & Survival
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Narrated by:
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Melanie Carey
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By:
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Rachel Baldwin
About this listen
If you are born into ineffable darkness, can you even comprehend the light?
Take one-part volatile home life, two-parts haphazard nomadic existence, zero-parts social connection, and shake well. Our protagonist's only constant is unpredictability: that, and the charismatic, fundamentalist hammerings from the pulpit.
But, when a sheltered child goes nuclear? Just pray you are far from the exclusion zone.
Can a toxic cocktail of compounded trauma, spiritual warfare, and an unfettered nosedive into addiction be overcome?
Join Rachel on her passage through the underworld, as she searches for the means to reassemble her splintered psyche while wrestling against such things.
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- Brady Alton
- 03-16-22
Engaging and Emotional
The book itself is beautifully written and heartbreaking in such a powerful way. The voice actor did a wonderful job as well. The way she speaks it brings a whole new life to the words, to the point where I frequently almost forgot I was listening to a book. She captures all the nuances in Rachel's character as the story progresses perfectly.
I'm also very impressed that the author took feedback on the original recording seriously and found a new voice actor. It's a perfect fit and truly an inspiring story.
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