What if your calling was never modeled for you—and your grief hit harder than your training ever prepared you for? In this episode, pastor and author Aubrey Sampson joins Tara Beth and Mark to share the winding, beautiful, and painful road of planting a church while navigating personal loss, theological wrestling, and the loneliness of leadership.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• Why Aubrey never imagined herself as a pastor
• What it means to plant a church with conviction and complexity
• The emotional toll of leadership and stepping into grief while serving
• How theological clarity became a freeing force

⏱️ Timestamps:

03:00 – From volunteer to pastor: discovering a hidden call

06:00 – Wrestling with guilt, theology, and spiritual authority

09:00 – Why church planting was the only path forward

12:00 – Honeymoon seasons, heartbreak, and sacred disappointment

17:00 – Co-pastoring through sabbatical and spiritual weariness

24:00 – Grief, illness, and loss behind the scenes of ministry

28:00 – Pastors and the cost of not being allowed to lament

💡 Thought to ponder:

Ministry doesn’t protect you from pain; it shapes you in it.

Aubrey’s story is a reminder that faithful leadership isn’t found in perfection, but in showing up anyway, trusting that God meets us in the dark.

What happens when your gender, age, and relationship status seem to speak louder than your call?

In this episode, Pastor Elizabeth Bair returns to The Pastor’s Table to reflect on the quiet tension of pastoral identity, learning to relax into the authority God has given, and why she's not chasing titles, but transformation.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• The burden of “proving yourself” in ministry as a young woman
• Singleness and the myth of being “incomplete” in church culture
• When call becomes confirmation: living into the identity God speaks
• Learning to lead with grace when you're underestimated

⏱️ Timestamps:

03:00 – Proving yourself vs. resting in your call

07:00 – The “triple threat”: young, single, female pastor

13:00 – Finding spiritual authority in the midst of critique

20:00 – When ministry fits “like a glove”

27:00 – What Gen Z pastors wish older leaders knew

🧭 Takeaway:

God doesn’t define you by what others see as limitations. He calls you by name. That is enough.

What happens when you follow your calling, only to find yourself profoundly alone?

In this episode, youth pastor Elizabeth Bair opens up about stepping into ministry at age 22, navigating life in rural Michigan, and wrestling with loneliness as a single, young woman in a church leadership role. Her honesty is both refreshing and deeply relatable for pastors who feel isolated or unseen.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• Why Elizabeth almost ran from her calling
• The hidden costs of ministry that no one talks about
• What to do when your prayers for community go unanswered
• How Propel and community theater became lifelines of grace

⏱️ Timestamps:

03:00 – The surprising moment she accepted her call

07:00 – Moving in with her grandmother

10:00 – Confessing loneliness and finding lifelines

17:00 – God’s unexpected answer through art and community

23:00 – The cost of being a woman in ministry

28:00 – Age bias and the challenge of pastoral authority

🔗 Learn more about Propel Cohorts at https://cohorts.propelwomen.org/

💡 Takeaway:

Ministry can be lonely, but you are not alone. God often brings community in unexpected places, and you don’t have to carry the weight of your calling by yourself.

What if the secret to church health isn’t strategy, but vulnerability?

In Part 2 of this powerful conversation, Pastor Paul Dazet opens up about pastoring through cancer, exhaustion, and loss. He found these limitations became a surprising gateway to renewal. With honesty and humility, Paul describes how letting go of performance gave birth to a church culture rooted in healing, authenticity, and radical grace.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• The impact of pastoring a small church after leading a growing one
• How vulnerability—not charisma—transformed his congregation
• Why confession and emotional honesty are spiritual practices
• What happens when safety becomes the culture, not just the sermon

⏱️ Timestamps:

01:20 – Embracing limits and learning to love without pretense

04:00 – Deconstruction, reconstruction, and spiritual honesty

07:30 – Mystical moments and learning outside the institution

10:00 – Pastoring alongside his daughter in the same town

13:00 – A new kind of church culture: vulnerability and authenticity

16:00 – Unexpected growth rooted in emotional safety

19:00 – A theology of confession and communal healing

26:00 – A beautiful mess: letting go of performance

28:00 – Health limitations and spiritual clarity

30:00 – Writing, Substack, and the ministry of centering prayer

💡 Takeaway:

Church doesn’t have to be big and perfect community.

Paul’s story is a reminder that when pastors lead from a place of vulnerability and honesty, the Spirit does work no strategy could accomplish. This is a vision of ministry where weakness is not a liability, it’s the doorway to healing.

What if success in ministry is what’s breaking you?

In Part 1 of this compelling conversation, Paul Dazet joins Tara Beth Leach and Mark Quanstrom to reflect on his unexpected path to faith, his climb through the ranks of church leadership, and the moment it all came undone. From a picnic table conversion to the painful fallout of cancer and burnout, Paul shares what it took to stop pretending—and start pastoring with honesty.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• Why Paul faked his first altar call—and what finally made it real
• The pressure to perform in a results-driven church culture
• How cancer forced him to reexamine his identity and calling
• Leaving the “dream church” to shepherd a smaller, healthier community

⏱️ Timestamps:

00:00 – Welcome & Paul’s early background

03:00 – Growing up unchurched and marrying a pastor’s daughter

06:00 – Faking a conversion to impress others

09:00 – Real surrender on a roadside picnic table

12:00 – Falling in love with Scripture and community

16:00 – The business mindset in church leadership

20:00 – Ministry growth, cancer diagnosis, and burnout

25:00 – The personal toll of unresolved pain

28:00 – Leaving behind platform for presence

💡 Takeaway:

Paul’s story is a mirror for every pastor who has felt the gap between ministry success and soul health. Sometimes healing begins not in doing more—but in finally being honest about what’s breaking.

Read Tara Beth's substack here: https://substack.com/home/post/p-163159975

How do pastors hold space when words fall short?

In this deeply personal and reflective episode, Tara Beth Leach reads from her Substack essay, “The Sacred Threshold That is Hospice,” sharing the journey of walking with her mother through dementia and hospice. Joined by co-host Mark Quanstrom, they unpack the theology of presence, the temptation to “preach things pretty,” and the grace found in simply showing up when life unravels.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• Tara Beth reads her powerful essay on hospice and her mother’s decline
• Mark and Tara Beth reflect on the role of pastoral presence in seasons of sorrow
• The danger of escapist theology and the invitation to stay with suffering
• How the incarnation shapes our understanding of holy moments at the end of life

⏱️ Timestamps:

00:00 – Introduction to the episode

01:08 – Tara Beth reads “The Sacred Threshold That is Hospice”

09:10 – Reflection on writing, presence, and resisting tidy theology

12:00 – How pastoral care sanctifies suffering

18:00 – Blessing, the Beatitudes, and ministry at the margins

21:00 – A story about Jack Puckett and a glimpse of heaven

24:00 – Prayers, hospice, and moments of clarity

28:00 – Grace alone and the stripping away of self-sufficiency

31:00 – Final reflections on presence, sorrow, and God’s mercy

💡 Takeaway:

The holiest moments in ministry are often quiet, unspectacular, and full of grief. But in the hospice room, at the deathbed, and in seasons of deep loss, pastors embody the presence of Christ—not by fixing, but by staying. This is the sacred gift of showing up.

What happens when God leads you somewhere you never imagined—but you say yes anyway?

In Part 3, Pastor Ivan Ramirez reflects on his transition from the city streets of Chicago to leading a small-town church in Wisconsin. With humor, vulnerability, and pastoral wisdom, Ivan shares how cultural challenges, ministry mergers, and personal growth have shaped his approach to leadership—and why “let’s see where this goes” has become his life mantra.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• Why stepping away from ministry became the turning point

• The unlikely path that led Ivan to Burlington, Wisconsin

• Navigating cultural differences and subtle bias as a Hispanic pastor in a white rural context

• How healing, humility, and faithful presence create space for healthy ministry

⏱️ Timestamps:
03:00 — Leaving ministry and finding rest 07:00 — Preaching on July 4 and falling in love with a new church 10:00 — Merging two congregations and selling a building in two days 15:00 — Pastoring as the only Hispanic leader in a white community 19:00 — Confidence, calling, and finishing seminary after 20 years 22:00 — Letting go of “going home” and serving where God sends 27:00 — The wisdom of “let’s see where this goes”

💡 Takeaway:
You don’t have to know the outcome to be obedient.

Ivan’s story reminds us that when we trust God enough to take the next step—even without a plan—He writes stories we never could have imagined.

What happens when freedom finds you before a courtroom does?

In Part 2 of this gripping conversation, Pastor Ivan Ramirez shares how he left gang life, survived trial, and discovered God’s call through unlikely mentors, a Moody dorm room, and a courtroom bench. From early ministry mistakes to a doctoral degree, Ivan’s story is one of grace that keeps showing up.

🎙️ In This Episode:

• The unexpected grace that led Ivan out of the gang—and into ministry

• Navigating life after jail: roommates, youth ministry, and cereal-fueled discipleship

• Why academic struggle didn’t disqualify his calling

• How pastoring a small church taught him who the gospel is really for

⏱️ Timestamps:
02:30 — Choosing Jesus over gang life… again 06:15 — Transferred to the Christian wing 10:00 — Released from jail and taken in by a youth pastor 13:00 — From GED to Moody Bible Institute 17:30 — Facing trial while attending Bible college 21:00 — Not guilty verdict—and the cost for others 25:00 — Struggling academically but thriving spiritually 28:00 — Learning to pastor without making “little Ivans”

💡 Takeaway:
You don’t need polish to be called. Ivan’s story reminds us that the gospel forms pastors not just through pulpits, but through scars, failures, and second chances. Freedom doesn’t always come in the ways we expect—but it always comes with grace.