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My Quest to a Beard
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Alex Bertie
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Alex Bertie
About this listen
A brave firsthand account of online personality Alex Bertie's life, struggles, and victories as a transgender teen as well as a groundbreaking guide for transitioning teens.
Long before he became known for his YouTube videos, Alex Bertie was an isolated, often-afraid transgender teenager looking for answers. In this revolutionary memoir and valuable resource, Alex recounts his life, struggles, and victories as a young trans man. Along the way, he provides readers with accessible, highly researched explanations of gender, sexuality, and transitions. He explores without judgment how complicated all these things can be and how many equally authentic ways there are to live as yourself and find happiness.
It can be hard for questioning teens to believe in a brighter future, let alone find any sense of community. Here, with clarity and compassion, Alex writes as a supportive older brother for transitioning teens, their allies, their parents, and anyone looking to better understand others - and themselves.
©2019 Alex Bertie (P)2019 Hachette AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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Some interesting points, but extremely biased
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Amazing Trans story
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For younger generations, dating is a complicated mystery. Apps like Tinder and Bumble are supposed to foster connection but instead serve as a reminder of how painfully single we are. Certified sexologist and intimacy coach Shan Boodram - the most sought-after sex educator on the internet - is about to change all that. In this essential how-to guide, she addresses the realities of life today - when the rules of love and attraction are fluid - and teaches a group of young women how to become master daters in just 60 days.
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Hey it’s me...you
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Critic reviews
"Bertie is an affable, conscientious, and informed guide who writes well and gives his readers an invaluable, potentially life-changing and -saving book. It is highly recommended." (Booklist, starred review)
"The writing is lively and personal. The advice given is not preachy but rather practical and down-to-earth." (The School Librarian)
"Must read." (NME)
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- Rebecca
- 09-18-23
One of the greatest memoirs
I loved this book so much! I think it has great information and depth. Definitely going to read again! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 5 stars must read!!!!!
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- Kai Hunt
- 02-23-20
Yesssss
personally I loved it it's related to everything I've gone through as a trans man and helps me understand what I'm struggling with seeing as how I am pre t
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- Luisa
- 10-23-19
A story I can relate to
this is quite literally the best book from an ftm perspective that i believe can help my family understand me better. its hard to be able to breakdown what's in my head, especially in a way without getting interrupted... this is really the perfect way to help my family learn in their spare time. Alex, thank you for essentially writing my letter to my family. while it's obviously not a complete match... this will help them understand a lot of my thoughts and feelings and some of the struggles i have faced as i navigate through my life of self discovery.
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- Amanda Hodges
- 02-10-22
Great Book!
Loved the book. Could relate in my own ways to the author and experiences.
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