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Gordon Greenhill
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By:
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Craig Lancaster
About this listen
In the sweltering heat of a Montana July, the small town of Grandview readies for its annual Jamboree. The event is meant to celebrate community, but this year tensions boil over, threatening to tear the town, and a family, apart.
Sam Kelvig, a third-generation resident, will do just about anything to protect Grandview from the influx of new oil money and the strangers chasing it. Meanwhile, his restless wife, Patricia, wearies of the constraints of marriage to a man who is so tied to his community; Sam's estranged son, Norby, has reluctantly returned home despite the family's struggle with accepting his sexuality; Henrik, Sam's volatile brother, is looking for any easy opportunity; and Blanche, the family matriarch, only wants a bit of peace before she dies. As Jamboree goes into full swing, the disputes and desires of the Kelvigs - and their friends and neighbors - collide, fueled by both longtime resentments and an irrepressible hope to preserve their family and hometown.
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- cristina
- 01-08-16
Another incisive look at humanity from author
I absolutely loved 600 Hours of Edward and Edward Adrift. This is not quite up to that level, but great nonetheless. Mr. Lancaster writes about everyday characters with love and understanding. He makes you laugh at the tragic, cry at the mundane. Excellent author. Well read by Mr. Greenhill.
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- Lori K.
- 11-21-15
It was okay
It was okay. I think the themes were pretty worn out, though there were many - parent/child relationship strained, lengthy marriage becoming a bit stale, coworker issues, sibling issues, coming of age issues, race issues - and none of them were dealt with in any fresh way, so it was a bit dull in that aspect. But, it was a nice little town with a familiar scene and a comforting vibe, so I don't regret listening to it. The narrator was pretty good, but did make the women all sound a bit dumb.
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- Holly Blackorby
- 09-10-16
Entertaining!
Very entertaining, and funny. It is reminiscent of a Fanny Flagg novel. Would definately recommend.
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- Sara
- 08-02-17
Not For Me
I agree with another reviewer here that the themes in this book were stale and worn out. I would also add that I thought the conflicts and issues were overworked and belabored to the point of being tiresome. In addition, much of the profanity and rough talk felt awkward, forced and seemed unnecessary in the story.
Even worse, it was difficult to feel connected to the characters and get a sense of flow in the plot when the book was just over 8 hours long and had 78 chapters--some only 2 minutes long. It made the whole thing feel choppy, jumpy and really uneven.
Can't recommend.
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- Mary J. Mills
- 07-03-17
I can't understand how this book was rated 4 stars
What could have made this a 4 or 5-star listening experience for you?
A totally different book.
What do you think your next listen will be?
Not sure but it won't be anything by this author.
How could the performance have been better?
??????????? In other words, I have no idea how this could be improved, as I didn't like this at all. I normally don't write a review but this book was very disappointing and as short as it was it was still hard to get through. I didn't like the story line or the performance. I may like the reader in another story but this was so drawn out and down right boring to me. Still don't understand how it could have gotten 4 stars, but to each his own. This one was not for me at all!
What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?
None of the above, just is it ever going to end?
Any additional comments?
Obviously this book is for some but just wasn't for me.
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