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Colin McLain
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M. Earl Smith
About this listen
For Esther, her plan is simple: get to Bhutan and end her life. For Travis, the plan is much more complex.
When Travis Saint Croix enrolled at San Francisco State University, romance was the last thing on his mind. Meeting Esther, however, changed all of that. What followed was a whirlwind romance entwined with questions of race, society, mental health, and two trips to Bhutan.
It was in this tiny South Asian country that wars against both self-doubt and self-harm would be waged. With his name already embroiled in infamy due to events at San Francisco State, he must not only find Esther and stop her from her directive, but he must also find his way back to his own humanity, as well.
Both are forced to face their own demons and learn how to dance with each other’s in this complex look at one woman’s struggle to embrace life over death.
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