
The Hand That Feeds
Amphetamine Daydreams, Book 2
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Mike DeFrench
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A woman gets a cursed tattoo on her hand. A crow.
If she does something against "the rules" it pecks at her.
At first the rules are easy. Don't eat this food. Can't use that color lighter....
But they've gotten worse. So has the pain from the bites.
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