
The Absent Moon
A Memoir of a Short Childhood and a Long Depression
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Narrated by:
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Theodore Copeland
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By:
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Luiz Schwarcz
About this listen
Bloomsbury presents The Absent Moon by Luiz Schwarcz, read by Theodore Copeland.
'A beautiful work that is in turn haunting, touching and redemptive' SIMON SEBAG MONTEFIORE
‘A profoundly emotional book, and a brave one’ THE NEW YORKER
'Generous in spirit, devoid of self-pity, and an authentic literary achievement' ANDREW SOLOMON
When Luiz Schwarcz was a child, he knew very little about his grandfather Láios, a Hungarian Jew. Only later would he learn that Láios had ordered his son, Luiz’s father, to leap from a train taking them to a Nazi death camp, while Láios himself was carried on to his death. What Luiz did know was that his father’s melancholia haunted the house he grew up in.
Compassionate and tender, The Absent Moon interrogates a personal story of inherited trauma through a family history of murder, silence and the long echo of the Holocaust across generations.
'Brave, honest, devastating, and hopeful ... Schwarcz is a masterful storyteller’ ARIANA NEUMANN
'A lyrical and intimate portrait of the author’s lifelong, harrowing battle with depression' ABRAHAM VERGHESE
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