
Tell Me What I Am
A Novel
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Sophie Amoss
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Una Mannion
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WINNER OF THE CRIME WRITERS' ASSOCIATION'S GOLD DAGGER AWARD
"Sharp, poignant, thrilling and moving . . . . Tell Me What I Am is the kind of richly drawn, achingly atmospheric crime novel you can totally immerse yourself in.”—Chris Whitaker, New York Times bestselling author of All the Colors of the Dark
Two women wrenched apart by a family member’s disappearance must find a way back to each other in this haunting thriller by the author of A Crooked Tree.
Nessa Garvey’s sister Deena vanished without a trace in Philadelphia in 2004. In all that time, Nessa has never once doubted what her instincts told her: her sister’s ex-husband has gotten away with an unspeakable crime.
Nessa’s niece, Ruby, is raised by her father, the man Nessa suspects, in rural Vermont, on the shores of Lake Champlain. Ruby learns how to hunt, how the plants and trees grow, how to avoid making her father angry. The one question she longs to ask is the one she knows she cannot voice: What really happened to her mother?
Over fourteen years, four hundred miles apart, these two women slowly begin to unearth the family history of insidious power and control that has shaped them both in such different ways. But can they reach each other in time?
Tell Me What I Am is a riveting, indelible tour de force of buried secrets and unlikely resilience.
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- L. Spearman
- 10-10-23
Fantastic and compelling
Brilliant - pulls you in from the start. An amazing sophomore novel which I highly recommend. Looking forward to more.
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- Miz S-Hook
- 11-04-23
Reflections of Memory
I read this on the heels of Una Mannion’s first novel, which I stumbled upon by accident. I enjoyed this one even more. Such rich, well-developed characters, unrolling a mysterious story in opposing points of view. The way the author weaves the concepts of palimpsests in art with the shaping of memory and reflections of our own history is so powerful. The narrator, Sophie Amoss, did a superb reading, eliciting a strong emotional response.
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- Suzanna
- 07-17-24
Worth a Credit
Disclaimer: I loved Ms. Mannion's first novel - it was superb. This one was pretty good, worth a credit, but I didn't enjoy it as much as her first one. Well written, it was an interesting story that focused on the characters. There were parts where Nessa's depression/obsession/wallowing was overwhelmingly boring to me, as a reader. Overall, it was a good listen/story with excellent character development. Ms. Mannion remains on my list of favorite authors, and I look forward to her next book!
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- Tracy
- 08-20-24
Beautifully written!
Nature and atmosphere descriptions, haunting effect of time frame, use of memory and self dialogue of Ruby and Nessa.
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