
Saving Alex
When I Was Fifteen I Told My Mormon Parents I Was Gay, and That's When My Nightmare Began
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Luci Christian Bell
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Alex Cooper
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Days after Alex Cooper told her parents she was gay, they drove Alex from their home in Southern California to Utah, where they signed over guardianship to fellow Mormons who promised to save Alex from her homosexuality.
For eight harrowing months, Alex was held captive in an unlicensed "residential treatment program" modeled on the many "therapeutic" boot camps scattered across Utah. Alex was physically and verbally abused and forced to stand facing a wall for up to 18 hours a day wearing a heavy backpack full of rocks. "God's plan does not apply to gay people," her captors told her, using faith to punish and terrorize her. With the help of a dedicated legal team in Salt Lake City, Alex would eventually escape and make legal history in Utah by winning the right to live under the law's protection as an openly gay teenager.
Saving Alex is a horrific yet uplifting story of identity, faith, courage, acceptance, and freedom that reveals what happens when religion goes too far and how a group of dedicated Americans and one young woman fought for her rights, including finding the strength and courage to be herself, and how her story has inspired countless others along the way.
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- lindra
- 04-15-16
good
love it still reading it but so far its great and I would recommend it
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- Amazon Customer
- 06-30-17
Loved this!!
I loved this book, so inspiring and eye opening! must read for everyone I know!
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- LeeAnn O
- 07-14-20
Awesome memoir
It was an amazing story read with emotion! I felt extremely emotional as if I were the one experiencing the pain Alex went through. I did not tell anyone my sexual orientation until I was in my 20s and as a Christian, I went through people who turned their back to me. I’m so glad I bought this audio book
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- Lauren
- 01-25-20
Binge Worthy
Oh my gosh this book blew my mind. I was so angry with what was happening to Alex that I couldn’t stop listening. I NEEDED to know what happened. I’m very disappointed in the ending though... it’s a true story so I can’t say much but darn it!!
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- Joshua Fisher
- 03-18-16
A message for hope and a call to action
Alex's story is an inspiration, even to a straight white cis male like myself.
Saving Alex, as a book, is a roller coaster of emotions. Desires for justice, joy at the conclusion to her ordeal, immense feelings of sadness and even tears will wash over you as you read or listen to it. This book needs to be heard by all.
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- InYourFaceNewYorker
- 04-22-16
Harrowing
Would you listen to Saving Alex again? Why?
This is a very harrowing story, one that "reads" like a suspense novel.
Who was your favorite character and why?
Alex, for her determination and sense of self.
Which character – as performed by Luci Christian Bell – was your favorite?
Alex and her lawyer. Both great-- and real, obviously-- characters.
Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?
Alex's parents yelling at her to get out of the house when she came out as gay.
Any additional comments?
Listen to this. You'll find yourself speaking aloud in horror at certain moments!
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- M. Goodrich
- 02-05-23
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Some people just should not procreate. It’s shocking that they sent their child to live with strangers who were not licensed, and they didn’t even do a background check on the family. I’m surprised she was allowed to go back into that toxic environment with her homophobic parents. I am glad that Alex is doing well, and I know she’s helped a lot of kids who think they are less than.
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- HeidyNoelle
- 03-29-16
Crazy story, great reader...
Hard to believe this horrible treatment is still happening to this community! Good for her in having the courage to take a stand for herself at such a young age.
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- Kennah Leal
- 06-04-20
Gives Me Hope
This story about Alex Cooper’s bravery at the tender age of 15 years old breaks my heart and heals it simultaneously. This book is incredible for anyone looking to educate themselves on the reality that LGBT kids STILL face today, even in 2020 (there are STILL many “treatment” centers in the country). The narrator is great, and somehow manages to individualize character voices without it sounding goofy. 5 stars all around!
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- Ronald
- 03-30-16
I'm a Christian straight, divorced man, with 2 kids that lives in the heart of the Bible Belt.... Alabama
I enjoy reading/ listening books about things I know nothing about. As stated above, I'm a Christian who has battled drug and alcohol abuse. Having been clean for 4 years now, I am still labeled. So this book intrigued me because I wanted to see what being labeled from another point of view was like, the things others went through. It is a great book! I had no clue the struggles the gay community goes through. This book made me a better person!
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