
Mystery of Memory
Telling My Truth, Standing My Ground
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Deborah Howard
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Deborah Howard
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The Mystery of Memory: Telling My Truth, Standing My Ground is the story of an incest survivor who struggled to find her voice and believe in herself despite having only wispy, murky memories of her abuse.
After unearthing memories of being sexually molested by her father, Deborah spends decades struggling against her parents’ invalidation of her experience, suffering from painful self-doubt in the process. Finally, she decides to become a detective to find evidence to conquer her doubts.
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