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Aurora Rucker
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A church's lies, harassment, abuse, and deceit. A must-listen true story of a girl who took a courageous stand against an empire.
This is a true story of a second-generation Scientologist, born into the lifestyle and strict structure of this church, and the extreme harassment and abuse that followed the escape from this so-called religion.
Many in this day and age have heard of the Church of Scientology, but are unaware of the true scope of its reach, and the depth of its grip in our society’s structure. With opinion leaders, like big-time celebrities, vouching for this organized religion, can one truly trust the hype?
Once one joins, are you truly free to leave in peace?
This audiobook offers an eye-opening view of what it is truly like to be raised in the religious lifestyle of a Scientologist. And should you decide it’s no longer for you, how this billion-dollar empire seeks to destroy you as an individual, your reputation, your personal relations, and all you hold dear.
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- 6catz
- 02-10-22
Paranoia and Pettiness in Paradise
What a strange book. I wonder if growing up in a cult, lacking interaction with non-members, suspends one’s emotional growth? I’ve read a good number of books on Scientology and have personally known several members, but this girl sounds too damaged to assess herself. Other than her (possibly valid) fear of being tracked through the airport, the book reads like the diary of a 9th grader, full of mean girls out to get her and a cheating boyfriend she takes back over and over. So far precious little insight into her life experience in the church, why she left, etc. I had hoped to hear of a spirit’s triumph over spiritual adversity, not nasty 20 somethings trashing each other on FB. Not gonna make it much further, and already returned one title this month, so there goes a credit. Aurora, sweetie, your time would have been better spent with a good shrink.
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