
My Fair Junkie: Booktrack Edition
A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean
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Amy Dresner
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Amy Dresner
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In the tradition of Blackout and Permanent Midnight, a darkly funny and revealing debut memoir of one woman's 20-year battle with sex, drugs, and alcohol addiction, and what happens when she finally emerges on the other side.
Growing up in Beverly Hills, Amy Dresner had it all: a top-notch private-school education, the most expensive summer camps, and even a weekly clothing allowance. But at 24, she started dabbling in meth in San Francisco and unleashed a fiendish addiction monster. Soon, if you could snort it, smoke it, or have sex with it, she did.
Thus began a spiral that eventually landed her in the psych ward - and then penniless, divorced, and looking at 240 hours of court-ordered community service. For two years, assigned to a Hollywood Boulevard "chain gang", she swept up syringes (and worse) as she bounced from rehabs to halfway houses, all while struggling with sobriety, sex addiction, and starting over in her forties. In the tradition of Orange Is the New Black and Jerry Stahl's Permanent Midnight, this is an insightful, darkly funny, and shamelessly honest memoir of one woman's battle with all forms of addiction, hitting rock bottom, and forging a path to a life worth living.
My Fair Junkie: Booktrack Edition adds an immersive musical soundtrack to your audiobook listening experience! Booktrack is an immersive format that pairs traditional audiobook narration to complementary music. The tempo and rhythm of the score are in perfect harmony with the action and characters throughout the audiobook. Gently playing in the background, the music never overpowers or distracts from the narration, so listeners can enjoy every minute. When you purchase this Booktrack edition, you receive the exact narration as the traditional audiobook available, with the addition of music throughout.
©2019 Amy Dresner (P)2019 Hachette BooksListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
"Dresner's book is a sickening masterpiece. Hilarious and raw, she cuts to bony truth. I love her!" (Margaret Cho)
"Like Carrie Fisher's 1987 autobiographical novel, Postcards from the Edge, and Mary Karr's 2009 memoir, Lit, Amy Dresner's story of addiction and recovery, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Stay Clean (Hachette Books), is one for the ages." (Elle)
"Darkly funny, the memoir reckons with demons - sex addiction, drugs, and the quest for sobriety - in brutally honest, entertaining prose." (Refinery29)
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- Catalyst
- 12-17-19
Well worth the $$ and time.
At first I wanted to write Amy off as another "poor me" little rich girl with a drug habit who used daddys connections to land a book deal....however as I got further into it...the book is honest....funny and Amy is very real and down to earth. Definitely recommend this book to former junkies and non junkies alike. Well worth the $$ and time.
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- Olivia Joy
- 06-04-24
Wow
Absolutely loved this read! I really enjoyed the straight forward approach.
Great read for anyone.
Really enjoyed the first ambient sounds during the reading.
You will not be disappointed
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- amber
- 08-02-23
Honest
Loved it! This is a great book to read. I love her honesty .
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- Stacy Boland
- 11-29-23
Addiction and Recovery
What a gut wrenching depiction of addiction told raw and honestly to the reader. I couldn’t put it down!
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- Mikele
- 04-26-23
Heard on Skinny Confidential
Had high hopes for this book, as her story blew me away on the skinny confidential podcast. There’s something about the book that made it uneasy to continue listening to it.
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- Tommy G
- 01-27-21
decent, but problematic
your story of privilege is off putting. poor writing and descriptions, you don't need to describe every person with the first word being their race. Also very judgemental, full of humble brags. not particularly funny either. glad you made it, but you don't understand the term junkie. you were a speed freak. junkie is specific to heroin addicts. look up the beatniks and where the term originated.
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