
Memory's Last Breath
Field Notes on My Dementia
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Edita Brychta
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Gerda Saunders - author's note
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Gerda Saunders
About this listen
A "courageous and singular book" (Andrew Solomon), Memory's Last Breath is an unsparing, beautifully written memoir - "an intimate, revealing account of living with dementia" (Shelf Awareness).
Based on the "field notes" she keeps in her journal, Memory's Last Breath is Gerda Saunders' astonishing window into a life distorted by dementia. She writes about shopping trips cut short by unintentional shoplifting, car journeys derailed when she loses her bearings, and the embarrassment of forgetting what she has just said to a room of colleagues. Coping with the complications of losing short-term memory, Saunders, a former university professor, nonetheless embarks on a personal investigation of the brain and its mysteries, examining science and literature, and immersing herself in vivid memories of her childhood in South Africa.
©2017 Gerda Saunders (P)2017 Hachette AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
"For anyone facing dementia, [Saunders'] words are truly enlightening...Inspiring lessons about living and thriving with dementia." (Maria Shriver, NBC's Today Show)
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- Niheala
- 05-24-18
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heart-wrenching. this is why suicide should be legal and assisted. I liked that she made every minute count.
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- Richard McLemore
- 09-08-23
Heart wrenching and true
She lived a life where she found truth within herself. Suicide was an interesting solution.
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