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Tarny Evans
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Paul Casteri
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Lila Rose
About this listen
For the past four years, Nary May's heart belonged to Saxon "Vicious" Black. Despite the painful reality of unrequited love, her feelings never strayed, no matter what he did. But there comes a time when surviving means letting go.
What she never expected was to find herself fighting for her life and trying to survive a new form of torment threatening to swallow her whole.
Saxon was broken. Never feeling worthy, the last thing he ever wanted to do was taint the woman he loved. But it was easier to push and walk away than leave himself open for more heartache. However, when faced with the possibility of losing Nary to the monsters that invade her dreams, the time to run was over.
To save her means risking it all, but to continue living without his heart was no longer an option.
Warning: contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language, and very mature topics. Recommended for age 18 years and up.
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- Lisa
- 04-06-23
My absolute favorite story
Nary and Saxon have been my favs since the beginning. I’ve read this book dozens of times so to have the audio version is a special treat.
This series is the first I’ve read from Lila and started my years long dedication to her books.
The narrators did this story justice and I couldn’t be more pleased that the story came to life.
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- Jonella A. Moore
- 10-12-17
Her forever love!
Nary and Saxon have each loved each other since they were 13, but Saxon feels he’s not good enough for her because of his past. As a member of the Caroline Springs Hawks MC chapter, he sees Nary all the time and is just mean and nasty to her to push her away. Until she’s kidnapped, that is. Now all he wants is to get his woman back and claim her. Narration was very well done as well.
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- Arianna
- 05-02-19
Great story
This book was great but then again all of these two series have been amazing! I can’t wait for the rest of the series to be available in Audible!
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- Wandalee 312
- 03-30-19
Love from afar
This us a fantastic book. I'm never disappointed with this author. Her stories are always compelling.
I love the way she keeps you on the edge of your seat. This by far a great story it's about the true meaning of love and brotherhood of the MC WORLD
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- Kristin Poole
- 12-30-18
Loved it!!
I would definitely give this book five stars!! It kept my attention the entire book. And I felt like I was apart of the story. I would definitely recommend this book!!
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- Booklass
- 09-17-20
Well done
The narrators do a great job. I actually prefer this as an audio. The heroine is strong, compassionate and totally makes the story. I think the hero is a tool, but he improved part way through. I still think his reasons for treating the heroine poorly in other books and earlier don't fly.
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- Amazon Customer
- 11-17-17
Great Characters I love
I loved this book...it was the right blend of funny...suspensful....lustful...and romantic...love these characters and I hope to see more from this author.
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- BarbaraY
- 10-12-17
Long Awaited
It felt just as hard to listen to as it did reading Nary & Saxton's story .. It's more of what happened to Nary but they both had troubling pasts as in Nary always found herself when younger shoot at scared , nearly raped , but dick heads wanting to take a Hawks Girl always pick the younger women thinking they're easy fodder .. Some cases they were for one reason or another ... Saxon's has had a shit life from young till the Hawks help him from a young age .. He's never thorght he's been good enough for Nary ... But something has happened this time that he's Not Backing Down ... It's just a bit bumpy getting there .. Fab Story , excellent Narrators , Love the Series
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- BCB and wife
- 06-16-20
Disappointed
I’m not disappointed in this book but the fact that thIs entire series by Lila Rose is not on audible. There are several books in the Hawks MC: Carolina Springs Charter that are not on audible. You get into the books only to find you don’t have access to all of them. 😞
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- V from Kansas
- 09-16-18
Sorry, stopped listening
I’ve really tried with these MC books by Lyla Rose but, I’m throwing in the towel. First, I just can’t wrap my head around an Aussie MC and the Aussie accents. I’m just too American, I guess, cause it just doesn’t fit. In addition, the narration is too dang slow. Before audible did this latest update, you could choose any speed. Now, you can choose reg speed, which is too slow and 1.25X which is too fast. I have kept this book in my library for months cause I really wasn’t looking forward to it. My instincts were right. This book is not for me.
-V from Kansas
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