
Jaded
A Poetic Reckoning with White Evangelical Christian Indoctrination
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Narrated by:
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Kim Ramón
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By:
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Marla Taviano
About this listen
“I needed these poems to cut through my own looping thoughts and to invite me to sit with my own grief, pain, anger, and—surprisingly—my joy at breaking free.” (D.L. Mayfield, author of Unruly Saint: Dorothy Day's Radical Vision and Its Challenge for Our Times)
After author Marla Taviano wrote unbelieve, a book of poems chronicling her faith deconstruction, her plan was to move on from white evangelical Christianity to bigger, lovelier, more all-embracing thoughts. But she couldn’t do it. Why? Because she was still jaded—and knew there was work left to do.
For those of us who are picking up pieces of life and faith and figuring out how to heal and move forward, jaded: a poetic reckoning with white evangelical christian indoctrination is a collection of poems—short, thoughtful, brave, and spicy—about getting stuff off our chests. Covering topics like evangelical scare tactics, sex and purity, patriarchy, white supremacy, and how the church treats the queer community, these poems say more in fewer words and with zero sugar-coating. With an appendix jam-packed with books to read on your journey, this is a book that will open you up and take you forward. Warning: you might not be able to put it down.
Jaded is this former good Christian girl’s offering—a labor of anger and love. We might not need to stay here forever, but we need this now.
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- Heather R Fitzgerald
- 10-27-23
Puts my journey into words.
I don't feel alone anymore in my journey out of evangelicalism. Heartfelt and amazing.
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