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Adenrele Ojo
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Ava Dellaira
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Ava Dellaira's In Search of Us is a sweeping multi-generational love story.
To seventeen-year-old Angie, who is mixed-race, Marilyn is her hardworking, devoted white single mother. But Marilyn was once young, too.
When Marilyn was seventeen, she fell in love with Angie's father, James, who was African-American. But Angie's never met him, and Marilyn has always told her he died before she was born. When Angie discovers evidence of an uncle she's never met she starts to wonder: What if her dad is still alive, too?
So she sets off on a journey to find him, hitching a ride to LA from her home in New Mexico with her ex-boyfriend, Sam. Along the way, she uncovers some hard truths about herself, her mother, and what truly happened to her father.
"A rare and special book. Part mother-daughter love story, part road trip journey, part compelling mystery, and one hundred percent beautiful, spellbinding tearjerker. I’m in love with every page." -Jennifer Niven, New York Times bestselling author of All the Bright Places and Holding Up the Universe
"A masterful work of fiction. Exploring race and mother and daughter relationships, this novel is also one of the most tender and authentic takes on first love that I have ever read." -Jennifer Mathieu, author of Moxie
©2018 Ava Dellaira (P)2017 Brilliance Publishing, Inc., all rights reserved. Published by arrangement with Farrar, Straus, and GirouxListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
"Dellaira’s debut novel, Love Letters to the Dead, was good; her second, which tells two connected tales set 18 years apart, is spectacular. Readers will be left sobbing, both for the characters they’ve come to love and for the state of the country - Dellaira draws on persistent racial divides to craft an ending that is surprising yet inevitable, heartbreaking, and hopeful." (Publishers Weekly starred review)
"A coming-of-age novel about all kinds of love, this is a realistic look into how teens’ lives intertwine with their parents’ pasts. Readers who enjoyed Dellaira’s Love Letters to the Dead or Emery Lord’s When We Collided will fall in love with this title." (School Library Journal)
"...[A] compelling intergenerational tale. Achingly vibrant." (Kirkus)