
I'm Tired of Living Dead
Domestic Violence a Silent Killer
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Narrated by:
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Norma Jean Gradsky
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By:
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Nadine Williams
About this listen
This is a story of how one little girl, at the age of five, became boisterous and bold in the face of abuse. She stood up against it and was determined that she would win over it. It's a story of how her connection with God gave her the strength that she would need to be a survivor and a conqueror.
This is a story of how one woman was to, with determination, squash what was meant to kill her by standing up in faith and courage. She lived a life of traumatic abuse for the next 50 years and defied death in every sense of the word physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, verbally, sexually, and economically.
See how living in a domestic violence environment robs you of true living. This silent killer of abuse could have led to physical death but did not.
This book is not a book you listen to for casual listening or just for your book club. From this story, you begin to identify with the character, or, as life unfolds before you in your present state and possibly realize it's real life happening today. That her simple cry for help may not be so simple!
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