
I Will Find You
A Reporter Investigates the Life of the Man Who Raped Her
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Kate Udall
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Joanna Connors
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"This is it. My rape. I knew it was coming. Every woman knows. And now here it is. My turn."
When Joanna Connors was 30 years old on assignment for the Cleveland Plain Dealer to review a play at a college theater, she was held at knife point and raped by a stranger who had grown up five miles away from her. Once her assailant was caught and sentenced, Joanna never spoke of the trauma again, until 21 years later when her daughter was about to go to college. She resolved then to tell her children about her own rape so they could learn and protect themselves, and she began to realize that the man who assaulted her was one of the formative people in her life.
Setting out to uncover the story of her attacker, Connors embarked on a journey to find out who he was, where he came from, who his friends were, and what his life was like. What she discovers stretches beyond one violent man's story and back into her own, interweaving a narrative about strength and survival with one about rape culture and violence in America.
I Will Find You is a brave, timely consideration of race, class, education, and the families that shape who we become, by a reporter and a survivor.
©2016 Joanna Connors. Epigraph quote by James Baldwin from "As Much Truth As One Can Bear", The New York Times (January 14, 1962). Quote on p. 76 from Ovid's Metamorphoses, translated by Rolfe Humphries (Indiana University Press, 1955), 146–48. Quote on p. 115 by James Baldwin from "Lorraine Hansberry at the Summit," Freedomways 19:4 (1979) 269–72. Recorded by arrangement with Grove Atlantic, Inc. (P)2016 Audible, Inc.Listeners also enjoyed...
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- 09-27-24
excellent!
Glad I did not listen to the bad review about narration because I thought it was absolutely excellent! This book was so good even though a tragic subject, the author is a brilliant writer, and I really enjoyed listening to her difficult story. thank you for the gift of sharing your story with others.
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- 10-13-19
Distractfully robotic narration
Distractfully robotic narration for an otherwise insightful and emotional book. This is a powerful story of suffering, courage, and self-healing. Yet the rough, choppy pacing and detached reading style of the narrator robs the tale of much of it's impact. I think I would have preferred this in the written form.
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