
I Don't Want to Talk About Home
A Migrant’s Search for Belonging
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Nadia Albina
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By:
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Suad Aldarra
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Brought to you by Penguin.
'I carry my troubled homeland within me; I hide it like a crime.'
Growing up in deeply conservative Saudi Arabia, Suad Aldarra felt stifled. The daughter of Syrian parents, she railed against the extreme strictures placed on women in Saudi society at the time and the rising prejudice her family faced as migrants. When the opportunity arose to study software engineering at Damascus University, she jumped at the chance to move to the city she loved for a degree of freedom she'd never known.
But when the war started, everything changed. Suddenly Suad and her new husband Housam were thrown into a world of relentless pressure and fled to post-Arab Spring Egypt. Suad's degree in engineering was the saving grace that allowed her to travel to Ireland on a working visa. Yet reaching safety came at a price...
I Don't Want to Talk About Home is not a memoir about war and destruction. It's not about camps or boats. It's about the enduring love for a home that ceased to exist and how to build a life out of the rubble.
With great warmth and insight, Suad writes about those left behind paper borders, the sacrifices made, and the parts of yourself you lose and find when integrating into a new world.
©2022 Suad Aldarra (P)2022 Penguin AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
"Powerful, fascinating and deeply moving—this book pushes aside our lazy images of human migration and refugees. I loved it." (Roddy Doyle author of Love)
"Full of heart, honesty and hard-learnt wisdom... a captivating journey across continents, history and culture. I literally couldn't put this book down." (Jan Carson author of The Raptures)
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- Anonymous User
- 01-16-23
Sensational storytelling
This is a timely book that allows us an unique view into the heart of displaced Syrians and those who have found a new home in Ireland . It is an honest , revealing and true account of one family’s story but speaks of the universal importance of a place you call home . A gem !
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