
Heavy
An American Memoir
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Kiese Laymon
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Kiese Laymon
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Kiese Laymon grew up a hard-headed black son to a complicated and brilliant black mother in Jackson, Mississippi. From his early experiences of sexual violence, to his suspension from college, to his career as a young college professor, Laymon charts his complex relationship with his mother, grandmother, abuse, anorexia, obesity, sex, writing and ultimately gambling.
In Heavy, by attempting to name secrets and lies that he and his mother spent a lifetime avoiding, Laymon asks himself, his mother, his nation and us to confront the terrifying possibility that few know how to love responsibly, and even fewer want to live under the weight of actually becoming free.
A defiant yet vulnerable memoir that Laymon started writing when he was 11, Heavy is an insightful exploration of weight, identity, art, friendship and family.
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- 02-14-19
Beautiful
An articulate, honest story of a brilliant black man navigating his black body,mind and soul in America... Heartfelt... and oh so beautifully written... tackles hard topic of pain caused by those who love us the most but are just as broken...
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