
God Told Me to Hate You
An Evangelical Minister's Escape from the Clerical Closet
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Carl Wolfson
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By:
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Tom Muzzio
About this listen
A biographical exposé of the dark side of modern corporate religion, as told by a former Evangelical fundamentalist Christian minister turned gay activist.
Says Tom, "How did I ever fall for it? When I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart as my personal Lord and savior, I went all in. Years later I had to struggle to find a way to get out of both the ministry and the closet as well. I was a gay man trapped in the ranks of the Fightin' Fundies - constantly mentally recording their every word. But Evangelical Fundamentalism is like flypaper - try to get it off. Well, I finally did just that. Talk about fallout! And here's the whole story."
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- Shevaun Bastarache
- 08-23-22
A Hateful Diatribe
The author is obviously resentful of the evangelical church, of which he was a part of for years, and focuses on “exposing” the “fighting fundies” as frauds and bumpkins. What struck me the most was his total lack of self reflection. He had many affairs with men while still married to his wife and touts this as healthy exploration of his sexuality. He glorifies promiscuity and classism. This is one of a handful of books I’ve regretted purchasing.
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