
Don't Count Me Out
A Baltimore Dope Fiend's Miraculous Recovery
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Lee Osorio
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Rafael Alvarez
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Don't Count Me Out chronicles the life of Bruce White from the beginning of his drug use in elementary school through criminal acts fueled by his need for drugs, to his miraculous recovery three decades later and involvement in the treatment of addicts, where he is now a leader in the rehabilitation field.
Rafael Alvarez's recounting of White's journey should inspire those dealing with the fallout of addiction. Alvarez, a journalist and screenwriter, allows the listener to get inside the head of an addict who was stealing alcohol from his parents at the age of nine, selling drugs and tripping on LSD and PCP by the time he hit seventh grade, and hooked on morphine before he turned fifteen. "Bruce White? I thought he was dead?" is a response encountered in many of the interviews Alvarez conducted.
Don't Count Me Out shines a spotlight on an improbable and stunning miracle. Though this is just one person's story, the contributing factors of early sexual assault, the role of permissive preoccupied parents, and the need for peer approval, among others, will resonate with many as the opioid crisis continues to haunt us.
©2022 Bruce M. White; Foreword copyright 2022 by Cornell University (P)2022 TantorListeners also enjoyed...
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- Bryan M
- 01-06-23
Riveting. Inspiring. Important.
One of the most memorable, perceptive and inspiring works on addiction I've read and listened to.
I read parts of the book and listened to others parts and the audio rendition of this book is quite good.
When I was walking while listening to it, I found myself extending my walk just so I could get to the end of a chapter or episode.
Don't Count Me Out is an incredibly honest story of addiction. It is also eye-opening about addiction and the addiction industry as a whole. Additionally, the sense of time and place is captured in great detail by the author.
A great read and listen!
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- robin Hayman
- 12-03-22
A powerful story
Honest, intriguing and a beacon of hope for many! Couldn’t put it done once I started!!
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- the mamanikos
- 01-03-23
Thank you for sharing
I would recommend this book to anyone that needs encouragement in their life that may be experiencing a period of stuckness in any area. If Bruce, worst of the worst, can get better and help so many others, then anything is possible!
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- Amazon Customer
- 11-08-22
Amazing story of transformation
What an amazing story of this mans journey from using people and things to becoming an asset to our entire community. The narration was professional and made for an enjoyable experience. I especially liked when he spoke in his "Bruce" voice. Really inspirational.
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- Helen Osborn
- 02-10-24
I must read for the recovering addict, the struggling addict, and the family of an addict 
I just finished this book, and I am in complete awe of it. The story and the man that Mr. White became and continues to become. I think about all the people that he has helped and all the lives he has saved. It is a roller coaster ride and a testament That an addict any addict can lose the desire to use and live a life of Recovery. I highly recommend this book to anyone in recovery with clean time, anyone, struggling with active addiction, and the family of the addict that struggles it has something for everyone, but it has most of all is hope and concrete evidence that we do recover
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