
Clarity
A Memoir
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Diana Estill
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Diana Estill
About this listen
2021 International Book Awards Finalist, Health: Psychology & Mental Health
At age four, Diana manages her family's banking, grocery shops alone, and befriends the town drunk. Her father is too busy chasing skirts and throwing fits to notice what she does. And her mom is too mentally absent to properly parent. While Diana's narcissistic dad terrorizes and exploits her, she works harder to please him.
Estill, an award-winning humor author, shares an honest and comedic look at her dysfunctional childhood. As an adult, she struggles to reclaim her power while caring for her dementia-impaired dad.
In this thought-provoking tale of resilience, the author pierces the fog of emotional and sexual abuse.
©2021 Diana Estill (P)2022 TantorListeners also enjoyed...
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- Suzy
- 08-13-22
Hearing the Author's Voice Was Moving
I enjoyed this book when it 1st came out. However hearing the author's voice read those same words was very moving.
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