
Camp Paradox
A Memoir of Stolen Innocence
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Barbara Graham
About this listen
This haunting yet wry coming-of-age memoir set at an all-girls summer camp fast-forwards decades into the future as Barbara Graham grapples with the knowledge that the "love affair" she believed she'd shared with her female camp counselor in the 1960s fits every definition of sexual abuse. The book will appeal to anyone who has experienced a betrayal of trust or conflated love and abuse.
Barbara Graham's latest book, Eye of My Heart: 27 Writers Reveal the Hidden Pleasures and Perils of Being a Grandmother, was a New York Times best seller. Her essays have appeared in many magazines, including Glamour, More, National Geographic Traveler, O the Oprah Magazine, Psychotherapy Networker, Self, Time, Utne Reader, and Vogue and have been collected in numerous anthologies. She has written for websites such as AARP, Beliefnet, Grandparents.com, the Huffington Post, and NPR, among others, and is a columnist for PurpleClover.com. Barbara's plays have been published by Dramatists' Play Service and produced off-Broadway and at theaters around the country.
This is a short audiobook published by Shebooks - high-quality fiction, memoir, and journalism for women, by women.
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- Roger
- 02-12-21
Overall pretty good
I felt as though the ending was rushed. Sad story and the narrator did a great job.
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- barbara
- 12-26-22
Camp Paradox
I thoroughly enjoyed listening to this book, love the characters, story & the narration was very good.
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- Karen
- 06-09-23
just wish it was longer!
I'm very proud of the person standing up to the bully. alot of times, it takes maturity and age to realize WHO is your abuser and I had to realize at 25 years old that mine was my own sister. what a revelation.
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- Old Tyme Punk
- 03-29-24
From Victim to Survivor to Overcoming
Powerful novel about a 14 year old Female who was groomed, and taken advantage of by a much older woman.
After decades of shame and the inability to internalize the trauma, the author describes how she was able to not only come to terms with what happened, but also overcome her trauma.
The narrator does a fabulous job.
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- Victoria JD.
- 01-15-22
Eye Opening, But Not Surprising
I found this to be, as the title above says, eye opening, but not surprising. Puberty is already difficult for kids in so many ways, I can't imagine how this experience made it more confusing. Not bashing any serial preference, just knowing that teens already have it difficult, and then to find out it was against the law, as she mentioned pedophile behavior being exposed all over the place. Good narration.
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- Sheryl A.
- 09-08-22
Very real
Down to earth telling of sexual predation of a minor and it’s fallout. Examines the tricky realization by the author that she was a victim. Author describes well the multitude of feelings that happen while being manipulated in this type of relationship
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- Rachel
- 12-09-21
Excellent
A very enlightening book. It is told in a way that allows the reader to enter the experience feel the pain, and the closure. Thank you so much to the author for sharing!
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- Heather Hawley
- 04-08-22
I applaud Barbara Graham.
What courage it must have taken to share this story!! Incredible. Barbara Graham had no reservations in making it known that sexual predators can also be women, as she was a victim.
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- S. Mcwatters
- 07-23-21
So what.
While the narrator was indeed violated, abused and molested by this woman leaving her with much shame and confusion- i too was confused because the event didn’t seem to traumatize her until until work research into the trauma of other victims of sexual abuse led her to realize what had happened to her after which she seemed to exaggerate and revel
In her victimhood, and pretend that the event had caused some deep harm in her life, not made evident in the storytelling- unless you count her reliance on psychics and healers as evidence that this event led her down the path to become another self-indulgent, privileged white woman.
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- Anonymous User
- 03-24-21
Interesting and concise.
A short story of repressed victimhood, the writer’s new currency. But still interesting and well performed.
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