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Dreadful Boys, Book 1
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Narrated by:
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John Solo
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By:
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Myka Loren
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Phoenix: Bad breakups happen. Sometimes, they hurt, and other times they're downright deadly. I spent the last year trying to keep my head above wave after wave of heartache. I focused on my band, my friends, and my cat. I wasn't living, but I was surviving without Eli.
That all changed because he's back. And he's with someone else. As if seeing him with another person wasn't bad enough, he hasn't changed. He's still the same addict I fell in love with. I don't know if I can forgive him for it, either.
But the heart wants what it wants, and I don't think mine will ever stop begging for his.
Eli: I had no business inserting myself in Phoenix's path again. We were a catastrophe before, so what made me think it'd be different this time?
I made it my mission to ensure that I broke him so thoroughly that he'd never want me again. But that's the thing, I can't seem to forget him. He's a living memory beneath my skin. His kisses are burned into my soul. The screams in my skull are only quiet when he's near.
But the noise is louder than ever before, and I fear he might be unable to silence them this time. We're doomed, but I can't stay away. Not anymore.
Contains mature themes.
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