
All the Lives I Want
Essays About My Best Friends Who Happen to Be Famous Strangers
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Alana Massey
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Alana Massey
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From columnist and critic Alana Massey, a collection of essays examining the intersection of the personal with pop culture through the lives of pivotal female figures - from Sylvia Plath to Britney Spears - in the spirit of Chuck Klosterman, with the heart of a true fan.
Mixing Didion's affected cool with moments of giddy celebrity worship, Massey examines the lives of the women who reflect our greatest aspirations and darkest fears back onto us. These essays are personal without being confessional and clever in a way that invites listeners into the joke. A cultural critique and a finely wrought fan letter, interwoven with stories that are achingly personal, All the Lives I Want is also an exploration of mental illness, the sex industry, and the dangers of loving too hard. But it is, above all, a paean to the celebrities who have shaped a generation of women - from Scarlett Johansson to Amber Rose, Lil' Kim, Anjelica Huston, Lana Del Rey, Anna Nicole Smith, and many more. These reflections aim to reimagine these women's legacies and, in the process, teach us new ways of forgiving ourselves.
©2017 Alana Massey (P)2017 Hachette AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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- Hart
- 08-19-17
Riveting
Really changed the way I think about things. What more can you say about a book?
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- Amazon Customer
- 05-06-20
An excellent listen for lovers of pop culture
I loved how the author weaved celebrity's lives into her own understanding of herself and how others are seen and perceived by those who know them well and those who don't.
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- lil' old me
- 03-28-17
Recommending to All Fellow Chicks!!
I literally couldn't stop listening. I've never heard of this author before (I happened upon her looking for a new book), & man was I pleasantly surprised. This chick is well read, knows her culture and the history behind each of the "lives", and perfectly weaves her backstory inside of every page. It made me think of a modern day version of Bitch (cannot recall author, but written in the '90s), but shorter.
I also think anyone wanting to fully enjoy this HAS to listen to the author read it; it wouldn't be nearly as engaging or the page-turner otherwise.
My only critique? It wasn't longer!!!
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- Sandra Lazo-Herencia
- 05-19-23
Had to finish in one listen.
I loved this book. the author has such cutting, deep observations of the female experience. She's insightful and real. The essays are extremely well written and keep the reader engaged.
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- Bernadette Awwad
- 10-06-17
Incredible Writer
I expected something a notch above People magazine stories, but Massy's writes about each of her subjects with a depth, intelligence and empathy I couldn't have imagined. Her sentences are impeccably crafted, as she draws you into her narrative with every word.
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- Samantha
- 08-28-18
Hypnotic
The content is superb, the writing is excellent. Ms. Massey’s voice is hypnotic as she vocalizes her own essays. This is no easy feat. I wish there was more! Witches, basic or otherwise, will enjoy.
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